True Contenment

Be happy when you receive it,

Treasure it when you have it,

and remain happy even when you don't have it,

but give thanks for knowing you will get it.

SL- 01.08.12

Learning to Let Go

Letting go off someone doesn’t mean washing hands off that person, but rather, we are learning to allow the forces of nature to work in its own way naturally. While we watch our loved ones live life in their own experience, we are also giving ourselves the chance to love as it is.

Sl. 7.08.12

Tinted Eyes

We have eyes, we rarely see.

Or rather, we rarely want to see clearly.

As days go by with a blur, even when it is in front of us, we still can't see.

We become ungrateful to our eyes, unable to connect our eyes to our hearts.

Slowly, we might end up forgetting who we truly are.

Breathe

When you find yourself wandering towards the future,

It has not happen...breathe.

If you are currently reminiscing the past,

It has long gone happened...breathe.

Breathe, my friend, what's happening now?

Find your self moving inwardly,

Stay with the now...breathe.

Sl. 6.7.12

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My magical abundance

I have been compiling my works recently, from time to time, ranging from writings, poems to illustrations. Although there is a long more way to go to compile all of it to publish a book. Nonetheless, tables have turn now and when it comes to my creative work, I am glad that I no longer give in to the works of unworthiness. Yes, I will always be a "Work in Progress", and my heart guides my hands each time I write or hold a marker to draw. But, unworthiness will no longer come in between me and my creative self. I have finally found the true meaning of Art and Creativity... no longer bound by the ideas of society's perception of how art is suppose to be. 

Art is not money, art is the soul, and money is abundance. So, if I allow myself to fall in love with my work and believe in it, abundance will always come naturally. 

I recently got promoted at work. I am still trying to get use to the feeling of getting promoted because honestly, I have never gotten an incredible achievement ever throughout my whole working life. My promotion was unlike others, who was recognized by their bosses, etc. For me, it was entirely different- I seized the opportunity when opportunity was there for me waiting to be seized! And after all that has happened, after much thought, I realized that it is the same thing for abundance. To me, abundance (or money, whichever you might want to call it) is not something that would fall from the sky when you put out your hands. 

My two cents on Abundance:
- An opportunity
- An opportunity has to be seized as it would not come knocking on your door. 
- Instead, we knock on its door by believing & loving ourselves and our work, for it is magic. 
- And magic can only happen when you believe in it. 

So, back to being promoted, I thank God, the universe, my higher self for being the core motivation for me to move forward each day. To help me make decisions intuitively to seize opportunities. 

To loving what I already have and loving my Self most of all.

The Judgmental Friend

We are our own judge.

We are also our own friend.

Knowing this outwardly, we still judge.

Swinging the gavel down to unfriend to ourselves.

Within my space

I have often wondered to myself, if given a hypothetical scenario; would it be natural if I confront a person who is causing trouble to others, or if I approach a person who is in trouble without the person requesting for help?...or would it be unnatural if I just be and observe from afar and not interfering with what ever that is going on in that person's space?...I have often reminded myself this, whether I may be right or not, that if I approach the person causing or experiencing trouble, I think that I might be interfering with the natural experience the person might be experiencing. And since there is much more cause and effect rather than right or not, I probably would be altering the effect of the experience one is encountering or need to encounter if I do step in. So, question here is, would it be cruel to not take action when you witness a trouble? Still, in our complicated human world, some feel the need to do something about it because they feel a sense of protectiveness or responsibility. Some were also told to be ignorant for not doing something bout it. Nonetheless, it would be necessary to always check with our intentions first before we proceed to take the next step. Perhaps that must've been how the phrase begun "it's not my place to speak or do..." because really...sometimes the best thing to do is to just be.

Working in and out

To attempt not feeling hurt inwardly is to blame the outside.

To blame the outside, would also mean failing to work inwardly.

Failing to work inwardly would lead to feeling hurt within.

The answer would probably be, it is best to understand the context, the cause of the situation and the effects from what happened.

Work inward and outward. 

Let it go with forgiveness, and just be Love.

Cheek to Cheek

 "...If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also..." Matthew 5: 38-42

Perhaps they have gotten it all wrong. 

To offer your other cheek to be slapped does not mean that we are giving in.

Instead, metaphorically it means to offer loving-kindness continuously with understanding and awareness to the one who is unaware.

Or in other words, let's put an end to the vicious cycle so that it would not continue to propel into another negative experience again, and again.

Silence

Silent; seen as lack of self-esteem,

Silence as a sign of intelligence.

Silent; seen as lack of stance,

Silence as a sign of observation.

Silent; seen as timid,

Silence as a sign of boldness.

Silent; seen as opinion-less,

Silence as a sign of reflection.

Silent; seen as ignorant,

Silence as a sign of awareness.

Silent; seen as frustration,

but Silence as a sign of Love & Truth.

-SL 5th June 2012-

Procrastination

Sometimes the smallest things in life happens to be one of the most important realization.

You see, I have a DVD player that is not able to read DVDs well unless they are original copies. It gets old because it demotivates me to watch a good movie while I do my chores. Time and time again I remind myself that I have a standby player which I can easily hook it up and my problem would be solved. But of course, comes the procrastination. My mind starts to give excuses like, "but the current machine is of sentimental value or cant move the TV to plug the wires." Eventually, I let these thoughts take over me and complained about the machine failing me without realizing that I was being irresponsible of my own actions.

So here I am trying to play a movie again, trying to on and off it until it reads the DVD.. But this time, I though to myself, how long am I going to go through this procrastination when all I have to do is just take a little effort to try and hook up the new player instead.

A new found realization came through and I realized, I only thought it's hard because I gave myself excuses.. Not realizing that I let these excuses or negativity be part of me to stop me from being able to enjoy the little things in life.

Now, I am eager to make the switch. Moral of the story: Don't say I can't before I can.

Gratitude to Getaways

My Love
 and a "Big LadyBug" for me!

I had a blast at Genting again. This time we needed the getaway ever since the pile up projects at work almost devoured me. I had a lot of chance to my thoughts when i was away. This time, i noticed how and why i felt the familiar feeling of anxiety and little misery when it was our last night there. I had the chance to observe my surroundings, people and the atmosphere when i stepped into a casino; even noticed how my behavior changed when i was surrounded with Asians who, many, were very tensed and stressed up at the Casino dealer's table.And an idea came to mind again, money is nothing. For decades and lifetimes, money has been the source of many happenings and reasons. But really, it is just a piece of paper, with some mandatory images and descriptions printed on it; and us, we give power to money. We bring it to life. But what if we didn't? What value would there be in Money?

Anyways, all that money-thing aside, i think like-wise with anxiety. So, i thought to myself "this time i will not give in to feeling worry, misery or any negative energy that would be able to bring me down and affect my holiday." And a pat on my back, i enjoyed myself! =)

For I am Love

Like a child on a swing,
I want to be as still as the mountains...

Gentle as the sky,

As strong as the tree...

As pure as the green grass...

For I am Love.

-SL 22.03.12-

I Am, What?

I am just like a drawing,

A figure combined with shapes, sizes and colours.

Initially, I am nothing,
Nothing but just a frame,
frame until I am formed.

However, I still exist,

Because I am thought off from God.

Before I am formed,

I am one with the wind.

I am one with nature,

I am one with everything seen and unseen in this world...

I am an idea,

I am in mind.

I exist, yet I am nothing.

I am, after all...

Just made out of shapes,
colours and sizes,
and other intricate elements.

SL. 19.03.12

The Road Taken

Two roads diverged in a wood,
and I took the one less traveled by.
And that has made all the difference.
-Robert Frost


When I was 16 years old back in secondary school, i remember learning Robert Frost poems in my English literature class. I always felt that the poem (above) was inspiring, little did i know that it had so many meanings on various levels. I downloaded a Cognitive Behaviour Diary App today, when i launched the app, there i saw the familiar stanza.

Reading the stanza brought back a flash of memories, incidents and automatically the mind tries to match to the meaning of the poem like a jigsaw puzzle, and i ended up relating to the poems with my past experiences. But one particular passing thought caught my attention; it was that everyday we are given the choice to choose and that choice would lead us to various scenarios, conclusions, consequences. 

Everyday we change and renew ourselves mentally and emotionally. How do we change it is how we face these daily "choices" in our own way. These choices are priceless journeys, an alone journey but not lonely. 

Where i am today, is the result of a route i took yesterday, and yesterday's journey was a route i decided upon the day before that. Somewhere along, what i said to someone was a route i chose, and how the person felt or how i was left to feel or thought, was based on a chosen route before that...

The journey of the road traveled is simply a paradox one... how interesting. There are no which road is the correct one or not.. it is basically just what happens after that.


The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Space

When you think about it, it is strange that (generally) we tend to get affected by another person's negativity when the other person is expressing from his or her own space.

How strange it is that we tend to either 'butt in' or get dragged in, forgetting that it is not our space at all to intervene.

If we remember this, surely it would be easier to feel inspired or motivated to create something be it a piece of art, a song or a written article. 

If we remember this, surely we would not be a cowardice or feel deprived of happiness when our minds, our thoughts are being neglected.

What a strange experience, a question or an idea to ponder on.

An idea, surely it is just an idea, a thought, to be affected at someone else's words and opinions, connected to the perceptions we have of ourselves and of others based on what we did, do or have done.

Strange

Sometimes blinded by its glory,

sometimes knowing it is not that easy.

When you acknowledge it,

it becomes a drug,

when you ignore it,

it is tough.

You would think that it can change each other,

for better or for worst,

one would never know.

But in your own space, my dear

I know i can never understand.

I cannot call this thing, love,

for love knows many wondrous beauties.

Yet this thing people claimed to be love,

it pricks and it hurts,

feeding you not true happiness,

but like a carrot before an ass.

How strange it is,

for this we sacrifice.

We strive and cry,

we talk and try...

Yet, all these actions,

Serve only to seek approval.

- SL. 1 March 2012-

One More Day

While we walk,

while we talk,

while we think,

my soul is keen for one more day.

To be alive,

to laugh

or cry,

to smile

or be upset,

my soul seeks for just one more day.

To sing and dance,

to write and draw,

to express and listen,

my soul asks for just one more day.

To be here and now,

to be loved and love,

to be free and freed,

my soul yearns one more day.

For one more day is a day to give,

one more day is a day to see,

one more day is a day to strive,

for my soul is lifted just with one more day.

-SL 29th February 2012-

Taking Responsibilities

I kept going back and forth.

I had moments in my head.

I recap what I have learned about taking responsibility of my thoughts, words and actions. 

I understand that and fully grasp that the outside world has nothing to do with the inside me, and the inside me is all that matters, truly. 

So I would like to stop for a second to breathe, while I take note of what I love, what I choose and what I am thinking.

I give thanks to the universe for the experience.

With a touch of grace, into the new year 2012

happy new year to everyone, may the divine continue to bless us all with wisdom and inner peace.

I have been so busy lately that i dont even have time to update my blog; although, i am capable of controlling time yet i do not realise that i can do so like how i did it once. Nonetheless, i shall not complain because despite being busy, i still manage to fulfill many other tasks and things that i've been wanting to do. So while i grace into the new year of 2012, i'd like to sit back here (on this blog virtually, haha!) and pat on my back the things that i've managed to do:

1. went for a romantic expensive dinner at a german bar & restaurant with Justin for a nice german meal- something i never done before.

2. registered The Artsy Craftsy to a dot com.

3. creating more pages for the good of the creative community.

4. helped out a good friend as her PR and managed to get her an interview with the local newspaper.

5. set up a bazaar to promote Craft and Closet

6. worked hard at my day job

7. paid off my study loan

8. spent less in clothes haha!

9. got my name out there, for starters at least.

10. my birthday; my colleagues were wonderful enough to surprise me when the clock strike 12. I had to worked overtime at the office for some project. On the day of my birthday, i had a cozy and wholesome birthday with Justin and my favorite cake- White Macadamia Chocolate!!!

And so much more to list out...

My new year resolution this; to continue being positive in all thoughts, actions, reflections, everyday forever.